through the music

im speaking passionately heartfelt cause im the girl who you wanna take to bed like j.holiday im the girl who will cater to you the way beyonce says but my heart is damaged like danity kane so how you gonna fix it, im holdin on your rope got me ten feet off the ground and im hearin what your sayin but i just can't make a sound you tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down..one republic speak for me the rest its funny because every song played in order like i was hearing my story but theres one last thing missing he doesn't--wanna be,chris brown...please treat me like you'll never see me again alicia keys<3

Young, Rich, and Beautiful

Hello Beautiful People!! The day isn't done for me yet on the contrary it is only 4PM and I still have much to get done today. It's funny how when your trying to be on the move you realize it feels like there is never enough time to get everything you need done. It's all okay though you just have to keep going..NO SLACKING..not when your trying to be on your A-Game. My womens studies class this morning was interesting. Our teacher spoke much about the way people believe photographs to be realistic portrayals of the world around us. One snapshot away from capturing a real life image. However, even photographs have their own subjectivity. Journalist write reports and pick the best image out of a bunch of shots that best fits in with their story. In the same way, photographers choose what they will take pictures of out of everything in their surroundings and on which angle. All of this combines to form the subjective perception made on a photo by a photographer tearing up the photographical myth that photos are realistic. I could go into more details on explaining this topic but I would like to touch upon more things plus I think I'd like to rest my brain. My blog is my time away from everything including academics which are overwhelming me right now. On another note, I've been having this growing addiction to shoes. I think I just found some stores with some hot shoes to feed my new shoe fetish and there inexpensive. Good name brand shoes for cheap?!? Now that's an offer not worth missing out on. I'm planning alot for this semester along with my part-time party life lol. It's all time management so as long as I'm organized and get my work done on time I feel its okay to treat myself to a night out with my girls. Speaking of which, this weekend I should be getting my fake ID..bahahaha "BAD ASS" lol. I'll only be using this for a year and some of you are now wondering why spend the money for it then but uhh yeaa fuck that I'm living life! The plans are already set every weekend me, my roomie, and my boy Cedric are out to NYC. My boy is the CEO of his own entertainment company so he always knows about whats happening around the city. And if you figured it out, he will also be helping me by introducing me to Drake lol..hopefully if we happen to be at the same place at the same time. I honestly just think he would be an interesting person to meet..him and Alicia Keys too. So as for now, the days will be seeming a little monotonous but with having my car on campus soon, focusing on my academics during the weekdays, working three days a week at school, weekend party life in the city, shadow physician program at the hospital in April, real estate classes and certification in April, and we can't forget my spring break trip to Panama City in March too. I'm thinking life is about to get pretty freakin GOOOOOOOOOOOOD! Once all my plans start to kick in this monotmous life will take a turn.

Please Check Out Robin Thicke's New Album....Yeaa I need a man like that! lol
these tracks have been on repeat for me: Sex Therapy and Meiple



Ladies And Gentlemen,
Remember to Live the Life You Love, Love the Life You Live
You are all BEAUTIFUL....Smile everyday even if your day is going bad just Smile believe me even little things like that can change alot

LOVE, PEACE, & HARMONY
AlphaFemale<3

SHES BACK!

I would like to announce the arrival of the lost me, "Divalicious". I thought I told you I'm a STAR! I retired the game a while back but I missed the way it tasted. At the beggining of my college career, I decided to embark on finding a new me. I isolated myself from my old world, met new people, and experienced new things. Now its time to take the things that I have learned and integrate them with the old me. Well, at least I mean its time to mesh the old positives with the new positives and remove all that negative waste. This blog will now include the daily movements of my new lifestyle. Many can try to live the way I live but the difference is few can ever be me. I'm here to bring you a taste of the newly refined "Divalicious". Trust me things are about to get really fun. As for this so called love department, I think I'll be just fine. I'm not giving up hope on love because my heart still believes that in this cruel world true love does exist and it will find me. I will no longer be writing letters to my king on my blog. I probably will keep writing to him though but on paper because it is something special I hope to share with him when we do meet. I know if my King were with me right now he would wants this for me. This new Diva is ready to take on the world. I'm very serious on that too I'm speaking worldwide ;). Success has been waiting for me for far too long and I'm only a few steps away. Tommorow will be the first day.

LOVE, PEACE & HARMONY
AlphaFemale<3


Defenitely Check Out The Album Only By The Night By Kings of Leon..


Sidenote: I'm interested in getting to know Aubrey Graham better known to everyone as Drake. Just cause he's famous doesn't mean I can't hang out with him MAYBEEE and learn about each other..lol..so whats up Aubrey? we can exchange numbers :)

Touchdown

"maybe your looking for something you don't need right now"--some enlightening words from a friend I'm grateful for the people I have in my life. It's interesting people spend time looking for something they don't find and they wonder why they don't instead of questioning maybe it's just not time yet there probably other things your missing on and not paying attention too because your so focused on finding that one thing. Well, I'm done looking time to just look around at what I have right now and do with whatever comes my way. I think I finally understand what that means. People find it easy to say things but never find the way to actually live by them. I'm happy I just found the way. This is the beginning of a new journey.

This too shall pass

FML..mood swings here we go..I wonder how long me being down is going to last? Pause: funny thing is I'm in the car writing on here from my iPhone and I just saw a sign that says God Gives Hope..ironically that's all I needed to hear right now..patience.

I could use somebody

Dear King,

Life has been going pretty interesting to say the least. I wasn't feeling very happy yesterday as I was experiencing a mental storm of conflicting thoughts while trying to analyze and make a decision on what would be my next step. But you know me and I am a very strong person and at this point I decided to wash away the storm and put a smile on my face. Somethings you just will never have control over so its not about what decision I make its about letting life take its course. I'm just living everything out. That guy I was talking to said things that felt hurtful to me but at the same time drew me so confused. Confused in a way that I found it so shocking that he could be able to speak in such a manner. I am a firm believer in honesty but the matter of the fact is that it went beyond honesty. It drew a reflection of the person he very well is. Strong superficial lenses covering a man in his quest to seek the life of money and power that he has become way too vain to see what beauty looks like. I had never met a person like him, he most certainly proved unique. A man who looks at woman and in an instant is ready to pick out flaws. What he needs is a re-evaluation of the woman he holds so high up on a pedestal that he so constantly comapares to the women he meets. I did feel a great connection with him and its something I probably will miss. But I could never stand to be with a person who looks at me with eyes glaring at my imperfections. A man who cares will always be able to see past the imperfections and see you for your entirety. He will make a woman feel beautiful and happy. He will treat her like the queen she really is. Because inside his heart he feels joy in seeing her smile. He couldn't see me because he was too busy looking around for the imperfections. Now I'm done writing my thoughts but the problem im having is not being sure if I am perceiving the situation the right way..but in the end I wouldn't feel comfortable with him, his eyes scream ugly at me. So I believe thats enough to leave a situation just be. KING WHERE ARE YOU?!! come to me nowwwwww!....well blahh blahhh i know be PATIENT. I'm going to go focus on my academics now with the start of this new semester. I love you very much and were the shit!...KISSES<3 :)

ps. I deleted the devil, facebook. I needed to get rid of all the distractions right now and get my head in the game. I have alot of goals to accomplish this semester.

Journey to My King

this is one of my favorite def jam poems
she speaks, TRUTH!
i remember the first time i heard this i was going through some hard times and i was trying to figure out a way to pick myself up and when i came across this womans strong words she gave me the inspiration to hold steady and keep the faith alive. All my thoughts combined into one piece. I been in a relationship with myself for 20 years now and were doing better everyday!! :)