Life has been going pretty interesting to say the least. I wasn't feeling very happy yesterday as I was experiencing a mental storm of conflicting thoughts while trying to analyze and make a decision on what would be my next step. But you know me and I am a very strong person and at this point I decided to wash away the storm and put a smile on my face. Somethings you just will never have control over so its not about what decision I make its about letting life take its course. I'm just living everything out. That guy I was talking to said things that felt hurtful to me but at the same time drew me so confused. Confused in a way that I found it so shocking that he could be able to speak in such a manner. I am a firm believer in honesty but the matter of the fact is that it went beyond honesty. It drew a reflection of the person he very well is. Strong superficial lenses covering a man in his quest to seek the life of money and power that he has become way too vain to see what beauty looks like. I had never met a person like him, he most certainly proved unique. A man who looks at woman and in an instant is ready to pick out flaws. What he needs is a re-evaluation of the woman he holds so high up on a pedestal that he so constantly comapares to the women he meets. I did feel a great connection with him and its something I probably will miss. But I could never stand to be with a person who looks at me with eyes glaring at my imperfections. A man who cares will always be able to see past the imperfections and see you for your entirety. He will make a woman feel beautiful and happy. He will treat her like the queen she really is. Because inside his heart he feels joy in seeing her smile. He couldn't see me because he was too busy looking around for the imperfections. Now I'm done writing my thoughts but the problem im having is not being sure if I am perceiving the situation the right way..but in the end I wouldn't feel comfortable with him, his eyes scream ugly at me. So I believe thats enough to leave a situation just be. KING WHERE ARE YOU?!! come to me nowwwwww!....well blahh blahhh i know be PATIENT. I'm going to go focus on my academics now with the start of this new semester. I love you very much and were the shit!...KISSES<3 :)
ps. I deleted the devil, facebook. I needed to get rid of all the distractions right now and get my head in the game. I have alot of goals to accomplish this semester.
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