a blessing and a curse: my empathy for people



I resent all the moments the world puts in my face and reminds me that peace will never exist..these are the times that make me, cry...it upsets me everytime i lose a friend or you meet people who aren't good..they carry bad motives or have ill intentions..it hurts me deeply for some reason because i guess no matter how hard i try i could never be mean...as a child it was always hard for me to stand up for myself and i was always the nice one that people ended up taking advantage of and stepping over so i had to finally learn to defend myself...but even so now when i do defend myself its not the real me..i am that stupid to let people take me for granted and not care because i guess i am that much of a nice person..don't get me wrong though i've learn to earn respect..but what is that really anymore?..im just really sad because i wish everyone could just get along and people could be happy and unlike other people it hurts me more than alot of people in this world..i know i've already been told you can't make everyone happy and it doesn't exist i just wish it did thats all =/...



the last hope.